Happy Birthday to my Madalyn.

Silly girl.

Daddy and Madalyn

Madalyn and Olivia

Madalyn and Olivia again

Madalyn and Mommy

Her 1st Birthday.

Waiting for Olivia.

Eating a Cucumber, Yup not even peeled!

3 weeks old.

Holding Chloe for the first and last time.

Wow, my baby is 5 years old today. How time flies. I love this little "big" girl more than words could ever tell. She has been my rock and my hard place to fall and that's hard to say because she should have never had to be all of this for me, but she has been. Although Daddy was here, after Chloe died she was the reason I wanted to breath again, the reason I had to get out of bed in the morning, the reason to live. I don't know what I would have done had I not had this ray of sunshine by my side. I remember i used to sing "You are my sunshine", to her all the time, because I truly believed she was. I am so proud of her and can not believe that she will be going to Kindergarten in the fall. We have had our fall outs, as much as you can have with a 5 year old, but I love her so much. In honor of her 5th birthday I will post 5 things I love about her.
1. She knows how to make me laugh.
2. She is one of the smartest little girls I know.
3. She is the best biggest sister in the world.
4. She is an awesome helper.
5. She is the only girl I know that would rather eat tomatoes and cucumbers over candy.

I love you baby girl, forever and ever.

Father's Day

I need to post a little on the Father's in my life. I want to wish my Dad, Father-in-law Jim and Father-in-law Cliff a Happy Father's Day. Thank you for being awesome father's to me and to my husband, but most of all being the BEST grandpa's to our babies. Next I have to wish my hubby a Happy Father's Day. Honey I love you and we have been through a lot, more than most should have to in there marriage, but I am glad to have done it all with you. Thank you for being the best Daddy to our babies. I know being a Dad can be oober stressful but you know how rewarding they all are. So thank you for taking this "role" in our family, you are the best. And to all the other Father's, Have a good one.

HOME

Gavin is home. YEAH!!! I will update a little later, but he is doing good. He will have to go back in 2 weeks for a check-up, so I just hope it heals the way it should. Thanks for all the love, prayer and concerns.

Gavin must have missed Primary's....

Gavin is back down at Primary's. He had to have emergency surgery last night. He had something called Materoiditis, it is an infection that caused his masteroid bone behind his ear to swell and drop. It is VERY rare and not seen much at all these days, and especially for his age but of course Gavin's gets it!!! He had an ear infection and instead of it draining out like it should have it drained back in to his bone, causing a really bad infection. I took him into his pediatrician and he referred us to an ENT(ear,nose and throat)specialist and he immediately said that he needed surgery to drain out the fluid and puss that has been building behind his ear. The Dr. also suggested that we put tubes in his ear so that if and when he ever gets an ear infection again this does not happen.They also wanted to do a CT scan to make sure that the infection had not grown into his brain, luckily it had not. Davis hospital will not do anesthetics on a baby younger than 3 months and he is just a week shy of that, so we had to drive him down to Primary's. He was supposed to have the 45 min. surgery at about 8pm, but due to some emergency's he was pushed back and did not get out till 11pm. The surgery went well and they were able to get almost all of the puss out, so they put a drain in to help the rest get out. It was supposed to be an in and out surgery but because he seems to be our "worse case scenario child", they felt better leaving him in the hospital for observation for a few days. So he is still recovering and hopefully will be home by Friday. We are hoping that this will be his last scare. We are DONE with hospitals. This could have gotten really bad, fast so we are lucky that we caught it when we did. I will give you pictures and an update when we get home. Thanks for all the help and the prayers.

Still alive..... I think.

Well I am still adjusting to having Gavin home. Although I am beyond thrilled that he is home hopefully for good, I am EXHAUSTED!!! I love being a mom but man 3 wears me out. Gavin is doing good, we are still having to suction him out with a bulb and saline but that is it. I am still trying to get him on a better schedule or at least the schedule he was on before he went to Primary's. There was always noise, sometimes alot and I think he got used to sleeping through noise, which is good right, Why should I be complaining?. Except for the fact that at night as soon as the girls are asleep and the noise stops, Guess who's wide awake???? I can't complain and I'm really not I would do it on less sleep if I had too. I am so blessed to have him even here with us and after Chloe died I will never take my children for granted, EVER. Even if they cry for over 2 hours because Daddy took the rest of the Raspberries to work. Yup, that was my day yesterday, Poor Madalyn!!! I just got my camera back so I will post new pics soon.

Gavin.

Here are some pictures of Gavin taking his first bath being home. These pictures are from the first time he was home. I broke my new camera up at Primary's so the pictures from him coming the second time are on Daddy's camera and I have no idea how to download those. So as soon as I can get them on a file I will post them.

Pictures of the latest.

Here are some pictures of the girls and the few other things that have happened the past few weeks, other than our trauma with Gavin. The girls were able to come up to the hospital a couple times to see Gavin. Here are some pics.

Playing Peek a boo in the waiting room.

Madalyn graduated on the 15th of May from Preschool. She is off to kindergarten in the fall. We are so proud of her, She has been through a lot in her little life and has had to be her Mommy's rock. We Love ya baby.

Olivia had to participate too.

My sister Saralyn graduated with her Masters on the 4th of May. My girls think the world of her and she has been there so much for me and my family. I am so proud of her, she has worked her butt off for this and still found the time to take care of us. I love ya.

Easter dresses.

Here are a few pictures of the girls just havin' some fun.

Madalyn being silly.

Olivia loves to clean her ears out and walk around with the q-tips in her ears.